Today, was the most difficult part of my struggle.It was usual that one of those two took the whole control and behave whatever suits her.But this time..this time was the only time that i saw them hold hands, look through one strict direction, focused on a spot:

....who hasn't done bad things to me,

any more than the people locked in my past.

But I was perfectly calm and heated at the same time.I wanted show what the real life is like, wanted to show that noone can control another, all the consideration of life is mentally wrong...And it was a powerful desire in my mind to tell these.

Then I couldn't, was distracted by the stupid balance i have.Once in my life i managed to hold both edges together then I.....myself......blew everything up.

Yes Gaen, I selfishly hated you today.